I’m almost at the end of my journey through the hell that I have created inside myself; it’s easy to see the truth now that I have suffered all the pain that I caused everybody.
Now I see the end of the path; the last gate opens to let me see the real me, that dammed, useless, filthy beast that came to bring suffering and pain to a world full of happiness and hypocrisy, to break all the masquerade that separate the real world of anarchy and despair from the illusion of happiness and perfect control that was put in front of our eyes.
I’m cold and chained to the floor, the stones have frozen my soul, and a little puddle made of cold sweat acts like a window that shows me the world without me and makes me realize how wrong I was in my mind.
All that I see is humanity, and all that I think is about them; I would like to kill them all, not for their hypocrisy but for the pain they caused me, and the fear that I feel to live in that world and never being important or useful to anyone, to live without a propose more than simply exist.
What is a porcelain doll?
A porcelain doll is no more than an object made of porcelain that can be an animal or a beast even a human; they can have many positions or mean many different things but It doesn’t matter at all, because they are just porcelains and they are like humans.
Why like humans? Simply because humans can be fat or thin, black or white, tall or small, handicapped or not; they can be different in so many ways as beings can exist in the whole universe, and that difference doesn’t make you different than a human, that is what you will always be; no more than bones, meat, organs, senses, brain an soul.
Let’s think about that for a few seconds and we will find this is all we are composed of; wait a second, there’s a difference and I didn’t see it before, the soul, that’s the key, that’s the aspect that we forgot to look upon.
What is the soul?
Quite a hard question, for me soul its that immaterial part of every being, it also can be the engine that moves us, it can be the part of us that complements the physical part and give us the key to eternity, is the thing that religion talks about everyday and tries to save from hell or lead to Valhalla or wherever you think is your heaven, it can also be the psyche for scientists, that aspect unknown from the brain that gives you the possibility to feel and think or recognize the world around you.
That is the soul, and that is the difference between all the beings, that’s true but even in that difference, we keep being the same and that is why I talked about porcelain dolls they are same like us, why?
Look closely to them and you will find that they have a body like us, and inside them we know that there is something invisible like our soul and maybe they suffer like us and I have to ask you if you ever feel like a porcelain doll? I think the answer is yes; if that’s you answer it’s because you understand my point of view, if your answer is no please let me explain the reason that I use to say, think and feel that way.
Now I see the end of the path; the last gate opens to let me see the real me, that dammed, useless, filthy beast that came to bring suffering and pain to a world full of happiness and hypocrisy, to break all the masquerade that separate the real world of anarchy and despair from the illusion of happiness and perfect control that was put in front of our eyes.
I’m cold and chained to the floor, the stones have frozen my soul, and a little puddle made of cold sweat acts like a window that shows me the world without me and makes me realize how wrong I was in my mind.
All that I see is humanity, and all that I think is about them; I would like to kill them all, not for their hypocrisy but for the pain they caused me, and the fear that I feel to live in that world and never being important or useful to anyone, to live without a propose more than simply exist.What is a porcelain doll?
A porcelain doll is no more than an object made of porcelain that can be an animal or a beast even a human; they can have many positions or mean many different things but It doesn’t matter at all, because they are just porcelains and they are like humans.
Why like humans? Simply because humans can be fat or thin, black or white, tall or small, handicapped or not; they can be different in so many ways as beings can exist in the whole universe, and that difference doesn’t make you different than a human, that is what you will always be; no more than bones, meat, organs, senses, brain an soul.
Let’s think about that for a few seconds and we will find this is all we are composed of; wait a second, there’s a difference and I didn’t see it before, the soul, that’s the key, that’s the aspect that we forgot to look upon.
What is the soul?
Quite a hard question, for me soul its that immaterial part of every being, it also can be the engine that moves us, it can be the part of us that complements the physical part and give us the key to eternity, is the thing that religion talks about everyday and tries to save from hell or lead to Valhalla or wherever you think is your heaven, it can also be the psyche for scientists, that aspect unknown from the brain that gives you the possibility to feel and think or recognize the world around you.
That is the soul, and that is the difference between all the beings, that’s true but even in that difference, we keep being the same and that is why I talked about porcelain dolls they are same like us, why?
Look closely to them and you will find that they have a body like us, and inside them we know that there is something invisible like our soul and maybe they suffer like us and I have to ask you if you ever feel like a porcelain doll? I think the answer is yes; if that’s you answer it’s because you understand my point of view, if your answer is no please let me explain the reason that I use to say, think and feel that way.
There is a moment in every life where deception, despair, hate, sadness and every single bad feeling unite and break your soul; it could be a depression for love, a bad day, or that someone that you really love hurts you without thinking about the consequence, in that moment that takes just a few seconds and can be even faster than a sigh, all your world breaks down and you feel that you are empty and alone no one sees you, you think that you are dying or fell like if you are dying inside but you know that you’re still alive and that’s why you are feeling pain.
Once again there is pain inside, it bring flames and bring cold, it’s like if the blood red sandman is coming to take your soul to his realm full of agony.
In that specific moment is when we realize that we are exactly the same as dolls because we can always be broken by anyone and feel that the pain is consuming our souls but we have to overcome that pain and put on the mask of happiness and keep dancing and being beautiful, because everyone that we love is waiting for it.
What is a porcelain doll? Just an object that can be broken and reconstructed many times as we like to, and that will always be there for us as we are for everybody we love; with the only propose of giving they support and to listen their cry, no matter how many times they broke our soul; that’s why we always be as porcelain dolls.
Will you let me be your doll forever?
Once again there is pain inside, it bring flames and bring cold, it’s like if the blood red sandman is coming to take your soul to his realm full of agony.
In that specific moment is when we realize that we are exactly the same as dolls because we can always be broken by anyone and feel that the pain is consuming our souls but we have to overcome that pain and put on the mask of happiness and keep dancing and being beautiful, because everyone that we love is waiting for it.
What is a porcelain doll? Just an object that can be broken and reconstructed many times as we like to, and that will always be there for us as we are for everybody we love; with the only propose of giving they support and to listen their cry, no matter how many times they broke our soul; that’s why we always be as porcelain dolls.
Will you let me be your doll forever?
Aprecio que te tomaras el trabajo de leer mis desvaríos. No hará falta mencionar que es algo bastante satisfactorio, etcétera.
ResponderBorrarCon respecto a lo del término 'psiquis'... bueno, supongo que no es algo demasiado absoluto.
Aquí te va:
"La psiquis humana es el orden mental basado en el funcionamiento del intelecto, la emoción y la voluntad, que son los tres aspectos básicos de nuestra mente, que también pertenece a la psiquis. Para los filósofos griegos, la interpretación de psiquis es lo mismo que espíritu."